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This last year had one too many "Excuse me, life" moments. Everything from graduating college and starting my career to getting laid off and moving back to the one place I never wanted to return to – Dayton, Ohio.

May 2011 Graduation!
There's an insane amount of pressure that comes with graduating college. You're attacked with questions about the future and plans. Even job interviews ask, "Where do you see yourself in five years?" I just want to ask, "Are you where you thought you'd be five years ago?" Exactly! 

It's not enough that we're thrown into this world of bills, responsibility and life decisions. Everything leading to graduation had defined steps and a timeline (Kindergarten, Middle School, High School, College for some). I had no idea what I was walking into as I stood on stage receiving a piece of paper – proof that I was “ready” to enter the “real world.” I was just happy to have a job that actually related to my degree, not many around me could say the same.

I'll never forget the day everyone went back to school and I was working. Was this my life now?! No longer a definite path laid out before me. Then came that day, a blindsided Tuesday, HR pulled me aside and said they had to let me go. While losing my job was scary, it was exhilarating at the same time. I didn’t have to “grow up” or “figure out life” just yet. This was my chance to go after what I really wanted.

Learning the government’s system of unemployment felt like the first time my mom dropped me off at daycare. I was left there to figure it out and just wanted my mom back! After twelve weeks what I really wanted wasn’t happening, but I found a pretty legit job (a story for another post).

With the rapid change of this last year some things fell through the cracks – my dreams. I’ve learned that if I’m not working towards something greater I feel dead inside.

So, after a rough year and several life lessons, I have been reunited with my dreams and a burning passion to go after them. It might have taken me a year to say, “Excuse me, life” but I got there! Get excited, because I am!

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  1. UnknownDecember 12, 2012 at 1:23 PM

    Go, girl! keep me posted on your progression:)

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    1. UnknownDecember 12, 2012 at 1:44 PM

      I will! YOU were a big part of my inspiration :)

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